I believe that I suck at blogging. How do I keep up with this thing? There are almost full years in-between each post. But anyway, here I go again.This past year has had a theme. Getting out and moving on. Escaping from the things in life that hold me down and trying to move forward with positive things in my life. Getting out of Stockton (again) and leaving someone who was who heartedly a disease that I needed to wash myself of. From there I moved into an environment of love, another branch of my chosen family took me in, passed no judgment, and supported me in any way that they could. For them I am truly grateful because they showed me I could move on and get back on the right path. Like most good things, it came to an end… for now.Getting back to the hood. Took some getting use to. I hated it at first! Hated it! I had never felt so emotionally disconnected and alone. But like all things, that too passed and I am coming around to life in this place. I don’t know how I do it, but no matter where I live or what Im doing in life I manage to find the most awesome friends ever. Seriously, if you’re reading this and think your friends are cool, you’re wrong. Mine are way better. (p.s. in yo face).On mind mind at the moment are my endless hours of homework, and my constant urge to travel. I want to go go go. But I feel like Im grounded until I see this masters program out. Speaking of homework, that is what I should be doing right now, not blogging.Thats my story.
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It has been a while since I have posted something on here. Partly because I rarely have time for recreational typing and if I am doing it, I probably shouldn’t be. Since my last post I have moved twice, am about to move again and have started grad school. Trying times are these, I have never wanted a winter break to come so badly in the 20 years I have been in school. I love my classes, I just took too many of them this semester and have remedied this problem for next semester.I’m currently having a battle of the brain right now. To teach or not to teach? So far I have landed on getting “in the field” experience before I decide to teach, but I really think I could reach a lot of kids in a positive way and really enjoy doing that. Im hoping that time will lead me in the right direction. It’s just hard to not feel stagnant when all I do is sit on my laptop doing homework. Bah! Vacation vacation, please come soon!xo
Follow this link to view a project I created while in New York.
New semesters bring freakin new anxieties! Another self-inflicted crazy semester starts in two weeks, and im already worried. Already being flooded with emails about the paper, while im still trying to wrap up a summer course. The more i think about being editor, and being a student, the more i feel like i have already failed. I know i can do a good job, just getting it done seems to be the daunting task.
The anxiety also comes from being excited, i enjoy being at school and the people i have classes with (well most of them). I like taking notes for the most part, and learning new things. But then what? Graduation? And then what? Get a job, go back to school, not get a job. There could be worse options, im just worried about picking the wrong one, or not even having a say in the matter.
Im going camping this comming weekend, which is going to be great. It comes at the right time, the day after summer school officially ends, and one week before Fall begins.
I need a vacation.
The unsightly mask of uninspiration has attacked me this summer, with work and summer school and the constant need to sleep i have used my camera minimaly. What is my problem? with my internship completed, and the dreadful Fall semester still a month away, why cant i get off my ass and do something? Well i guess i could, but what do i do? where do i start? Comming from an art background, i should surely be able to come up with something but my mind becomes numb when i ask it to bring me ideas.
I feel like my skills are deteriorating, and i have felt this way since highschool. Is it possible for a girl to peak in 12th grade? Well in my case it is. I look at my friends portfolios and i am nothing short of amazed, amazed by what talent and ambition they have. And i cant help but compare my sad little portfolio to their proof of doing something and doing it extremely well.
Im feeling that next semester will be no different. With the daunting task of editorship i will defenatly have minimal time to shoot for myself, or possibly the very opposite i will have ample time to shoot since my staff will be the great number mighty 4.
Reguardless, im feeling very unmotivaed and stuck at a stagnent bliss.
Well, isnt summer school amazing?!?!? perhaps not, but one of my classes is over tomorrow and as much as i enjoy it i am happy to see it go. Only one more class to tackle, and I’ve got a whole month to do it.
Also i’ve started a new job, once again i am a fabulous barista! Getting up at 5am is something that i will have to get used to again ( not that i was too used to it before! hahaha). I just noticed i use exclamation points alot in blogging… i think its because when i take journalism class’s we aren’t allowed to use em, so now’s my chance and im gunna take it.
phone call, gotta go.!
Hello, i am Hanna ( aka: Hanna Thug, Hanna Banana, Thuglife, Stupid Face). I am a college student at SJSU in the Photojournalism department, next semester I will be the editor of the photo’s for the school Newspaper. I hail from the 209, Stockton California. I am always busy, always doing 2 or 3 things at once and have been doing this for so long that I rarely notice.
This is my first real blog entry ever, because Tony (aka: big red) made me. hahaha.
My future plans include many things, graduation (sooner than it feels) after that I could be anywhere. West Coast or East, i want to get out there and have fun. Either going back to school for my masters, or working for a music magazine, or shooting the Dodgers for an LA paper.
Thats it for now, just wanted to put something down.
Out like a fat kid in dodge ball,